As it turns out... as the day goes on... I get more and more depressed. And the annoying thing is that I can't tell anyone because the moment I open my mouth I know that I'm gonna start crying like a baby. I want to tell someone but.... all we end up with is a bigger mess then we started with. I have this giant urge to just slam my head on the desk and scream untill I can't even breath anymore, maybe then It'll all go away. I doubt it... there is to much tormenting me inside then I can possibly deal with.

My hands are visibly shaking... I can bearly control them, I can't beleave I'm typing all this. I was in class... the teacher was talking... and... I didn't understand a word he said... nothing registered... I swear it was like white noise... it was like the first year in Mexico... I didn't unserstand a damn thing.... it's like the logic center of my brain just shut down or something. I need help.... But I don't want to go an ask for it... the pain from that... the pain of admiting to somone that I know will judge me is just..... I can't do it. I'm not strong enough.


Let's head to lighter news before I start crying or something.

Club news!

As of late I have been swamped with club duties so.. I have made this handy dandy Schedual that starts today... of all days..

Tuesday; The ~Noodle-is-cute club will be looked threw and cleaned out as well as a Journal entery will be placed dictating the possible future activites of the club.
I will leave it under 2-D's charge so he will be the one making all the anouncments. As well as sending Notes to all of the Club members.

I get Noodle-is-cute? Great! Not much of a fan of having to write out the Notes...

Yes... 2-D speeks in Bold.


Wendsday; The ~Gorillaz-KreW will be checked, cleaned etc by Murdoc. He will also be making the nessesary preperations for the clubs hopful reserection.

I don't wanna... But I will.

Murdoc speaks in Italics.


Thursday; The ~Gorillaz-MegaFanz Club will get checked over by 2-D. Not many members there because it's new so... not much work for ya D.

Kay..


Friday; The ~Fans-of-Gorillaz club will be checked over by Murdoc. There won't be much to do there because I'm only a Co-owner so.. more then likely it will just be answering messeges and telling people not to fave club art and what not.

I get to be mean?

No.

Damn...


Hopfully after all that is done the boys will step aside and let me check my personal Account. Then if they disire they can check there own. They don't get many hits... like myself, but hey... you never know... somone might want to be a friend.

Thnx for reading.




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Clubs I'm in:

I love Gorillaz that much. (if you know of a Gorillaz club I'm not in... let me know because I want to be in them all.
The only two I could get into.
It's L.
I just found him cute.
Pleaze... I'm not a good SDL fighter... but at least I am one.

~JBCBlank